I really do not appreciate how the “cool” thing is to go to college, when pretty much my whole life in TFI it was “out of it” to ever think of such things. I got so many “corrections” for wanting to be “worldly” and want a higher education.

Ever since I was small I wanted to go to college and become a writer or historian. When I was 13 I was kicked out of a “home” so I could “get the vision” for not wanting to be homeschooled but rather to go to high school in order to better equip myself for my future goals, that I would do one way or another. During that time I was forced to live in a different state from my father because I wouldn’t say I was sorry for my outspokenness for wanting a different life. So many “adults’ tried to get me to “serve and commit myself to Jesus” and forsake my “worldly desires”. But no, I didn’t listen and went out on my own to do what I wanted despite what people thought and the stares of shame I received.

What frustrates me the most is that those very same people that told me it was “bad” and gave me those “talks” and punishments (reading lists, prophecies, ultimatums, no entertainment) are the ones that were responsible for the “changes”. I was even given a “prophecy” from “Mama” that told me to “choose the higher calling”. I still have it by the way just for shits and giggles.

There were so many people that wanted to break away too but were duped to believe that “serving the Lord in the TFI” was the only right thing to do in life. However, I’m quite disgusted that those who held me and others back for so long are now trying out the “system” and trying to play it off like they’ve always wanted to leave. If you wanted to leave then why did you try to hold so many people back and talk down to them when they made their decisions?

I get so annoyed when I read their status’ on facebook about “oh college”, “oh my kids” but they never gave a damn before. I hate string for a backbone cowards. In my opinion, if you really wanted to do something else with your life for you or your children you would have done it before it was “okay” to.

I don’t want to hear about how hard your 3-4 college classes with one of those being basic running are. Try working your butt off to get into a 4 year private college, taking a full class load (minimum 15 credits a semester) while working a “real” job or two to pay for an apartment, car upkeep(for a car that you had to work and buy on your own (for full price)), and every other expense that comes with surviving.

Hypocrites will not get sympathy or understanding from me.

I want to get involved somehow. I hope the Dream Act passes and Arizona losses.

For the 4th of July I get the weekend plus Monday off. Sadly Memphis isn’t doing fireworks on the River this year because they are broke, but there’s some others around town that I might go to instead and Phil’s family is having a bbq of sorts.

Phil’s brother and his wife recently had a baby. There’s a lot of drama about that and coincidentally nobody like’s his wife who happens to fuel a lot of it. We have not seen the baby yet because of her. It’s a sad situation.

At the end of the month a really good friend of mine, her husband, Phil, and I are going to Hot Springs, Ar for a few days. So far we have an amusement park, lake, spa, and shopping planned. It will be my first vacation since I’ve moved here, excluding a family reunion. We’ve been saving up for it for a while now, so I’m excited.

Here’s to dreaming that the second half of summer is better than the first.

To sum up my sophomore year it seemed to last forever. Freshman year went by so fast. This was definitely the hardest round of finals I’ve had. 7 tests and a paper in 5 days plus working in between is not fun. I can only imagine what my junior year will be like, plus beginning my thesis. Just too much to think about.

Summer is here and I’m not sure what my big plans are yet, but there will most definitely be something. One can only stand the Bluff city for so long.

I’m excited about the World Cup happening soon, because OMG do I need some sports in my life. The NBA/NHL playoffs just aren’t enough. I’m anticipating football season and can’t wait to start up fantasy football!

I love you Mommy.

I’m super happy. I start in the middle of May after graduation. The boss lady said that there were more qualified people, but that she liked my personality. (she also mentioned something about me bringing diversity etc, etc…basically I’m biracial so I help their department look good. But I don’t mind).

I want to thank Speck for fixing my blog. If you hadn’t noticed it was broken for a while.

The next two weeks will be busy. Its the last week of classes and then finals. But after that I get three short months of reprieve before the next semester of 18 credit hours.

Oh the joys of college.

Also…I recently got inducted into Sigma Tau Delta the International honors society for English majors, and I was also voted in as the Vice President for our chapter for next year.I’m happy

Anyhow…Please pray that I’m picked for this job. It would light up my world. Thanks!

Another goal has been crossed off the list.

I’m so excited.

AND….

THEY ARE GOING ALL THE WAY!

They put those mascot-less Jets back in their places!

Yesterday I was left two voice messages offering interviews for today. One I got during my last class, the other while I was shopping for clothes to wear to the first interview.

I’m really crossing my fingers for the second job, Ross. The first is a Bank Collections department. Of course the bank would pay more, but Ross would be so cool…and discounts! I’ll find out early next week the outcome. Cross your fingers with me!

I pretty much hate my spanish teacher. He acts like HE is our only class and assigns homework that way, when in fact he is one out of the six that I am taking. 2/3rds of the class is only taking his class because we are required to, not that learning spanish is bad but I would rather put my time, money, and credit hours to something else. For instance, we are in his class 3 hours per week, yet he assigns a test that can only be accessed Saturday at 4pm to Sunday at 11pm.

Really? A test during my weekend, and the third weekend of the semester?

Lame.

In other news: This week during Bio lab, I got to play around with sheep brains. It was disgusting but fun. And in a few weeks we move on to dissecting pigs and watching fruit flies get drunk and testing their alcohol tolerance.